Without you I am nothing. I look for love in all the wrong places and am disappointed that I cannot find anything close to what we have. I am a fool. A lonely beggared trying to find my way home to you. This idiocy leaves me unbalanced, like a crackhead leaning in his unbliss. It is here where I lie and wait. The days go by with no meaning. I look for something to spark my day, and all I can find is a memory from you. a postcard you once sent. These only make me miss you more. These only make it worse. So I look for something to help me forget you for just once more hour, minute, or second. That leads me back to the terrible filthy love that is not yours. I miss you. I will wait for you forever and always.